So He Stopped Being An Option!

I love her. She knows it. I can do anything for her. She is keeping me hanging in the middle of nothing. I know I am just an option for her in case she doesn't end up with him; she will come to me. Why is she leading me on? Ah, I know I have been pining in unrequited love which is causing me only pain and suffering every passing day. Why doesn't God answer my prayers? Train of thoughts making rounds in his head as he turns off the light and goes to bed.

He is 50 and has three kids now. He is not only married to her but has everything a man could ask for. From a beautiful family to a strong career, he should be considering himself as the luckiest guy. Yet, he is not happy and feels something amiss. He has no idea what is it though that has made him feel empty inside. Every single day at the dining table, sitting around his family, he thinks to himself if this is what he would pray for day in and out? His prayers have been answered yet he is not happy and this is something that has literally been making him feel squeamish. On the cusp of ungratefulness and emptiness, he is getting anxious and negative about everything.

One day on returning home he finds her talking to someone over the phone and even though he does not intend to eavesdrop on her, he catches her saying things his ears cannot believe. He feels the blood rushing to his cheeks and he thinks his head will burst any coming moment. He has no clue on how to manage things from here onward, therefore he decides to stay quiet and begins to pretend nothing ever has happened.

He is in hospital. Laying in bed, his eyes transfixed on the machine showing his heart's health and a tear drop rolls down his face. He is dying alone with no one around. His kids are distanced from him thousands of miles away as she had won their custody.

He thinks to himself on what exactly he did wrong that he has to bear so much of pain and misery.

Be careful what you wish for tells the doctor who just enters the room and hears him wishing to be dead already.

That's his eureka moment - Its like God has communicated with him. He was not careful about what he wished for. Day in and out he complained to Him and ended up having what he wanted which turned out to be worst ever thing. He has his answers. He grins broadly leaving the doctor bemused who is telling him to open his eyes and wake up....

Wake up ..... Wake up you are running late for office screams his mother and the sound gets shrilling when combined with the alarm clock. He sits up in his bed - overwhelmed - and finds himself drenched to the skin. Sweating on a cold winter night, certainly comes from a nightmare. Nevertheless, this was more of a wake up call.

I may love you someday but right now I cannot be with you; she tells him a week later at a gathering over a friend's place.

He smiles and looks in her eyes and tells her he has learned of late, being an option is not what he wants any longer. An option always remains an option and he has gone very wise in wishing for what he wants.

On that note he sets himself free of all the misery and pain. Spotting that unfamiliar face, sitting there in the corner certainly needs a company. He alters his way of doing things in life and turns to someone who happily embraces him as her priority.

Why let anyone waste your life when God wants you to enjoy it and wants the best for you!

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